so i'm never gonna be thin

I need to just face it...it's been 38 yrs and 3 days....and i've been fat all but 5 yrs of it. What brought this on? Well Elizabeth today hurt my feelings...Yes, i got my feelings hurt by a FIVE year old. She huggs me and says, "i guess i can love you even if you're fat Mom." Makes me start to cry again just typing the words. God. that just cut me to the core. And Dale thinks i'm making an mountain out of a mole hill because the words came out of her. But hell, just because it comes out of her mouth, doesnt make the words hurt any less. And it would be nice if Dale would work on trying to make me feel better rather than making me feel like shit for having voiced the feeling in the first place.

the things that make an impression

So it's been raining cats & dogs today...and we take the kids to Burger King for supper so they can play on the indoor playground. John goes up to some lady on the playground and starts talking to her..."My Mom...My Mom..." he's getting ready to tell her something...What will it be? She runs around in tee shirts and her panties? She kisses my dad a lot?..."My Mom cooks corn on the cob."

4th of July

First of all, i hope all of you had a great 4th. Our 4th was pretty low key but just as i've imagined it so many times. We got up Monday morning and went into the gym to play raquetball (Dale got a new raquet for Father's Day) then we had lunch and went by Old Navy to get 2005 Old Navy Flag shirts. (What a bargain too!!! highly recommend them at 2 for 7.99!!!) Then we came home and put the kids down for a nap and Dale and i took a nap too...Next thing we know, his family is there for a cookout..We slept right up UNTIL the cookout...too funny. So they came over, we rolled out of bed and got things moving. We gave all the kids water guns and all the water they could use and they had a BALL. We had a good dinner (hamburgers, hotdogs, corn on the cob and chips, with chocolate chip cookies for dessert)...ALL the kids made happy plates..then we sat around watching the Braves game (we won :) )until it got dark, then we shot of fireworks that we'd picked up in SC on Sunday. The kids loved them!! Then they went to bed, the company left and we then settled in to watch FIELD OF DREAMS...that seemed like a good 4th of July movie. So it was nothing exciting...but it was great together time and i really enjoyed that.

Old Navy Family 

ANOTHER Sunday

God I hate these Sunday visits with the woman who gets to officially call these children her own. She got mad today at me because I told the kids not to take their socks off at Burger King on the playground. I feel like those floors get soooo nasty...and the rules say to keep your socks on...So she told them they could take em off after I'd told them not to...and they say to her, "Mom said for us not to take off our socks" ...which just pissed her off...and she replies (according to Dale who heard it from her...) while you're with me, I'm the one in charge..." soooooo...I'm overruled...It's not a big issue...Just pissed me off. And I HATE watching them come out of BK towards the car...Dale with one or 2 in his arms, her with the other one in tow...them looking like a family. I KNOW that i have the kids 99.999 percent of the time...but i still resent these visits.

John, Joshua, & Elizabeth 

oh so boring

So I've spent all this time tonight looking and browsing through other people's blogs. God mine is boring!! My life isn't boring...My kids arn't boring, my husband isn't boring...So why on earth havent I created a more interesting blog for myself? Oh well...que sera sera. Maybe someday someone will read what i've written here and post a comment on my blog. Maybe. I'm about to post a picture of the kids I took today...Even though John is looking at a motorcycle that passed just as I snapped the picture, I like it. Dale's working late again...but tomorrow, our check should post to our account that we've been waiting on...and voila...magically, all our financial worries will be taken care of...I cant wait!!

Classics Never Go Out of Style

So tonight, Stephanie & Courtney were spending the night and we found that we had the Boomerang channel. Instead of the usual Power Rangers, it was a Tom & Jerry fest. It was so awesome to see allll the kids laughing hysterically at the antics of the 50+ yrs old cat and mouse.

Sprained my ankle today...UGH. It popped and down I went. Nice & swollen now. Tomorrow is the damned visitation. GRRRRR @ Linda.

A true moment of clairty

So, I'm sitting at lunch today...looking around at the table..loving the sight of my family sitting there eating something i've fixed...all of them. Nothing fancy. Corn Dogs & Mac & cheese (John's favorite) but it was a homey feeling that just hit me right in the heart. My husband. My kids. I loved it.

i hit 120

for the first time in ...like since i've known i've had Type 2, (5 yrs)
i hit 120 today :) (my blood sugar level...not my weight...hey a girl can dream cant she???) Granted, that was with the help of glucotrol and
I'd just come in from playing raquetball and walking on the
treadmill...but STILL...by golly i did it....now it's to keep it in
that area.

When Will Noah Pull up?

Good grief..will the rain NEVER end??? The kids need to be able to get outside and play so badly!! We caved in and went to McDonalds today just so the kids could play on the playground and burn off some energy. I'm introducing school work to them these days and it's going over pretty well. They're really very smart kids. Just sooooo full of energy and sooooo competitive with one another.

High 5's to Fat Albert

I havent felt the greatest today...I've gotten on Glucotrol for my blood sugars and the meds are giving me terrible headaches.

We rented FAT ALBERT for the kids tonight and i was VERY pleasantly surprised at a) how good it was and b) how well the kids liked it too. They've been a handful today and it didnt help that i havent felt well. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. Hopefully, we're going into the gym tomorrow...Those kind of days are always good because the morning goes so quickly and the kids will get to burn off energy.

Back in the Saddle

I've fallen off the horse on the Ebay thing...i get out of the groove and dont do it like I should...so Sharon brought me some more stuff plus I have tons of kids things to sell, so i"m back at it today. Sold a couple of things on a Buy It now and that rejuvinated me.

We all went into the gym today and i was proud of us...we played 3 games (of which of course i lost) and then i did some walking on the treadmill. We have a treadmill i could use here at home, IF we could find room to put it!! We have it in storage right now.

The kids are napping right now...Should be up in another 20 minutes or so...this is my best time to get anything done during the day...i can slip in here and list an auction or two ocassionally...but not uninterupted time.

Weekend re-cap

Stayed in Friday night...the kids watched THE WILDERNESS FAMILY. I was surprised it kept the interest of all three kids. I'm always weary when I 'm the one who picks the movie..then Saturday it was rainy....so the kids played inside etc...and Dale & i unpacked kitchen stuff from the apartment. Then Amy kept the kids Saturday night and Dale and I had a date :) Went into Atlanta for KPOG. Then Sunday, Janice had a birthday party for John in their new swimming pool so we all went for that...luckily, the ex cancelled her visit. So, all in all, a good weekend.

Money is VERY tight these days...it renews my interest in building the ebay business. Sharon gave me a bunch of stuff to sell when i saw her Saturday night...so want to get that going. Plus, the CD's sell so well, would love to obtain more of those. Dale & i've decided to have the garage sale the second saturday in June...We're hoping it will net us enough to get the transmission fixed. Wish us luck.

our new grill from Target....hope Dale doesnt have a lot of trouble putting it together. 

The house after adding a few flowers...we have more updates coming 

still sick again

Went back to the doctor today...got more meds...He's very worried about the blood sugar levels..and I am too. Ordering a new glucometer tomorrow. Will start tracking it better and taking the meds. The kids were awesome according to Dale while i was in the doctor's office. I treated them to a toy out of the McDonald's bag.

Tonight, we drove into Target and got the grill we'd both been wanting. We were quite frugal too...payday isnt till tomorrow, so we packed dinner (fed them sandwiches & pretzels and a fudge round for dessert! Bad parents!!)

We're having a cookout this weekend with his family and it should be fun to do on the new grill. The kids LOVE cookouts so I'm glad that we're doing it. Wish we could set up tables outside to eat on...

still sick

I'm sooooooo tired of being sick. It seems like I've had this sinus infection/bronchitis forever. My ears are all blocked up and half the time i cant even hear! All this to say it's been hard working with the kids and playing with them when i dont feel worth 2c myself! Today, i was out playing ball with John...it hurt my head to bend over and pick up the ball! UGH.

Working with Elizabeth on writing her name in upper/lower letters....she's coming along pretty well i think.

Cinco de Mayo

ok..physically, i feel like crap...the sinus infection i've got is kicking my butt! My ears, my chest, the cough...all combine to put one foot of mine on a banana peel.

The kids have been pretty good today..we went into Commerce and got some groceries and a new microwave and got Elizabeth's hair cut. It looks cute and should hopefully stay out of her face now. John was up most of the night coughing but seems to be doing better today. More later.

another bad day...

i need to write on some of the good days...because to read this you would think i never had any. Oh well, today's not one of them...i'm not doing so well at this parenting thing! i lose my patience too much and i cant seem to keep a sense of humor. I get too sensitve at things they say...the INsensitivity of youth...ie..."i didnt want THAT picture of Barbie with someone else in the picture...i only wanted a coloring picture of Barbie ALONE!" i know i'm the adult..but not feeling like one today....need a pep talk i guess.